Tuesday, December 7, 2010

My Day... So Far

It is 7:18am.  My day started many hours ago.  Here is a play by play...

10:30 last night - in bed
11:30 - Eli awake from teething (molars)
12:15 - back in bed
2:15 - Hannah up from a nightmare
2:30 - back in bed
2:45 - Eli awake again
3:15 - back in bed
4:00 - Isaac up for some reason, crawls in bed with us
4:15 - Eli awake
4:30 - back in bed
5:15 - Eli up for good
5:45 - Isaac up for good, I shower

6:00 - Aaron leaves for work
6:15 - Hannah up for good
6:30 - breakfast and relaxing with the kids, packing Hannah's lunch
7:18 - blogging
7:19 - run to the bathroom as Eli is laughing while playing in the toilet - YUCK
7:24 - kids are all laughing because Eli is barking at his dog toy

I'll be out the door by 8:15.  I'm ready for a nap.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Decorating the Tree



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Mommy and Eli

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More Thanksgiving



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Thanksgiving Pictures




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Yes, I Married an Eagle Scout.

I don't take enough time to say good things about my husband.  He really is an incredible man.  He is a man who can do all kinds of things.  I never really thought about it much, but I am SOOOO glad God gave me an Eagle Scout to marry.  I think I would be fairly annoyed if my husband couldn't do some of the things he does.  He can build just about anything, and he always makes it heavy duty!  He can build an awesome snow fort in the freezing snow and wind because he knows the kids will love it.  I think he loves it too.  He shovels snow like no one else.  He makes sure our pathway to the van is always safe and clear.  He could make a fire from sticks if he had to.  He can clean up vomit off the floor and no one would ever know what had been there the next day.  He can change a tire in no time flat.  He changes the oil in the cars, checks the tire pressure, changes the headlights when they are out, puts new windshield wiper blades on and washes the windows at the gas station.  If he needed to get a second job to provide for our family, he wouldn't hesitate.  He reads to our children every night.  He can splice rope like no other (I think that's the term!).  If something is broken, he at least tries to fix it and most of the time he can.  He cut up a turkey today and crock potted it.  He can hunt and dress a deer.  He can even gather berries!  He can plant a tree and make sure it survives.  He has a green thumb in the garden and makes the best grilled cheese and hard boiled eggs.  He could take care of our family if the power was out for an extended amount of time.  I never worry about how our family will be taken care of because my husband is always prepared.  He is MY Eagle Scout and I love him so very much!

Friday, November 19, 2010

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Life With Children

Life with children is never boring.  Life with children is full of all kinds of surprises.  Like today, I went to a women's meeting at church over lunch.   The boys came along.  Did I get much out of the gathering... no... but I still made the effort to go.  Eli had a diarrhea poopy diaper, Isaac accidentally missed the toilet and peed all over the floor, Eli refused to nurse or nap, Isaac bounced all over on a big ball the whole time.  Never a dull moment.

My days and nights since Friday have been long.  I had a list of things to do, and that list got pushed aside.  Everything on my list moved to the back burner as I cared for my baby boy.  Fevers of 103-104, screaming in pain from his ears and tummy trouble from the antibiotic.  Very little sleep for baby and myself.  My other two were as understanding as a 4 and 6 year old can be.  Eli only wanted Mommy.  So that is what he got... Mommy.  At times I felt like screaming myself.  2am with a crying baby is hard ... hard for Mommy and baby.  We slept great last night, except the massive wind storm kept waking me up.  At least Eli slept better, and that is better for everyone. 

I like to plan, and most of the time plans work great.  But there are times that they just have to be pushed aside.  Slowly I am getting the house back in order after a long weekend of doing nothing except washing clothes covered in puke.  It will probably take all week to get back on track.  But Eli is back on track and that is what is most important.  

Friday, November 12, 2010

An Evil Word

Cancer.  It is a horrible word... One of our dear friends from church, a wonderful older lady that Hannah adores, was just diagnosed with lung cancer.  It is devastating.  She has been a faithful preschool volunteer and a light in anyone's day.  We love her dearly.  This will be difficult.  Hannah already knows that cancer is not a good thing... our Pastor's sister just died from breast cancer.  I have not told Hannah yet.  I will need to tell her tomorrow because it will come up at church during prayer time I am sure.  I hate cancer.

Other than this horrible news, my week has been excellent.  I have felt more normal than I have in a long time.  The kids LOVE their chore charts and it has really given me more time in my day. I am still helping them get it down right, but they really seem to have a sense of accomplishment and the allowance doesn't hurt either! 

There was one other hiccup in our week.  Eli has a massive ear infection.  He woke up with a 103.8 fever and I got him straight to the clinic.  I have no desire to ever see one of my children suffer from a seizure.  I pray I never have to see that.  Anyway, he has nasty ear infection and now on antibiotics.  Nothing new in our household.  I hope Eli doesn't go the way Hannah did with her ears.  Isaac has had one ear infection in his entire life... he just gets the lung stuff.  I'm glad we live in an age of good medicine!

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Thinking...

I've been thinking about veterans today, namely the men in my family who have served our country. (I would include the women, but none have served.)  I am proud to say that they have served in the military.  I know their service was not easy, my Dad was in Vietnam as was my uncle and father-in-law.  I can't even begin to imagine what it must have been like... war.  I've seen my Dad choke up on several occasions when recalling his time there.  My cousin Bryan has served in Afghanistan.  I am proud of him and the wonderful things he has worked on during his time there.  I know he has seen horrible things too.  My Grandpa fought in World War II on the Pacific front.  He suffered lots of health problems from working on the clean-up after the bombs in Japan.  He was one of the proudest Marines I have ever known.  I am so very thankful for and proud of the strong men in my family and the family I married into.  So... thank you to all the veterans who have given so much to serve this country.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Daylight Savings

Seriously, what is the point?  My children are totally messed up by the time change, especially Eli.  The poor little guy has big circles under his eyes, he is having trouble staying asleep because he is overtired and I am having trouble getting him to sleep.  Hopefully after a few more days he will be back on track, but YUCK right now.

Isaac has also had some difficulty with it.  He's been teary the last few days because he is tired.  He keeps waking up too early.  Then he doesn't want to nap and he fights it.  UGH.

Hannah is on normal sleep cycle now and isn't waking up before 6am... now if the other two could adjust. 

I liked falling back before I had children.  Now I just don't see the point.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Getting it Together

It's time to be honest.  I have had a rough fall.  I know most of it is hormonal and I am now pretty sure that I have been struggling with Postpartum Stress Syndrome.  It all kind of started when we moved, school started up, and Aaron became the commuter.  I knew it wasn't Postpartum Depression, because I am not depressed.  I am functioning very well but I have this feeling on inadequacy and a sense that I can't seem to accomplish anything.  In reality, that isn't true.  I accomplish a lot, but I have at times not seen this very well.  After doing some research about it and finding out that Postpartum Stress Syndrome exists (I had no idea) I have felt empowered to make some changes that have really helped me in this struggle.  Hannah and Isaac are old enough to do some more helping around the house, so I made chore charts with them.  This will ease my housekeeping load, and it really is good for them to contribute.  I have found they are cleaning up better after their play, because they don't want to have to take care of it when it is one of their chores.  They also don't have chores on Sunday as we endeavor to teach them about the Sabbath and they get a small allowance.  They will be tithing from their allowance and also learning how to save a percentage of their allowance.  I feel really good about this.  Hannah especially has taken to it and is so far quite excited about it.  I am also working at creating a schedule for my time, inputting the things that I need to get done and a time to do them.  I know this will have to be flexible, but it will help me feel like I have my thoughts organized and a plan.  Yes... I am a planner.  I am good at planning and organizing.  It is time to put that planning to good use for myself.

I have not shared my struggles with many.  Just my dear friend Ann and my husband... and this wasn't until recently.  While I am not a perfectionist, I have always felt like I need to be the strong one, whatever that means.  I have a strong husband, strong friends, and more importantly a STRONG God.  I have felt like sharing my sense of struggle would somehow make me weak.  I have changed my thinking.  Sharing my struggle doesn't make me weak or strong, it just makes me human.  It make me part of community.  I try to be there for people when they are struggling, I know they would support me in the same ways.  I have nothing to fear because I am safe in the arms of my loving God and the loving people he surrounds me with.

Having children is not an easy thing.  I LOVE my children more than anything.  Growing babies was not easy for me, many of you know my pregnancies were very hard.  This being my last baby has thrown me a few curve balls, partly because it is my last baby and that is a hard reality for me to accept.  I know my hormones are still out of alignment because I am always hot.  I mean burning hot.  I sleep with just a sheet when my husband needs 3 blankets.  I find myself wearing tank tops around the house when everyone else needs sweaters.  So it shouldn't surprised me that other things are slightly out of alignment too.

While I feel like things are on the upswing, that I have started to find tools that are helping me get back to a more normal me, I am still going to make an appointment with my Doctor.  Maybe some blood work will help narrow down what is off balance.  I thank you for your prayers.  I'll let you know how it all goes!

Friday, November 5, 2010

Playing in the Leaves

When we lived in Endicott, we had a few big tress that gave us a lot of fun fall leaves.  Each year we would play in the leaves and get some great pictures.  Our new house doesn't have these trees.  While it is nice to not have to worry about cleaning up the leaves, we do miss the fun they give.

Today, Isaac wanted to see if our Pastor's grand-dog wanted to play fetch.  After we picked Hannah up from school we headed over to the church, I had something I needed to finish up anyway.  Pastor wasn't home, so Milton couldn't play.  We decided to wait just a little bit to see if they would come home.  So we went to the front yard, and it was covered in beautiful yellow maple leaves.  Isaac and Hannah began piling the leaves with their hands.  I found a couple of rakes in the open garage and they began to rake, rake, rake.  I took Eli out of the backpack and put him in the leaves.  He sat for quite awhile just feeling the leaves I piled on him.  Then he let out a squeal and was crawling all over the yard, through the piles of raked leaves, up and down the gentle slope of the yard.  Isaac and Hannah were laughing, Eli was moving, and I was enjoying just playing with them.  For a moment I wished that I had my camera, but I am glad I didn't.  If I had had it I would have been looking for the perfect picture, trying to get the kids right where I wanted them to make the perfect memory.  Instead, I lived the perfect memory.  I love pictures of my kids, but sometimes the camera takes away from the moment. (I may take them back to get some leaf pictures.)  I had an amazing hour of pure fall fun with my children.  We laughed, we rolled on the ground, we got itchy from leaves and we ended with a snack of crackers, raisins and mini chocolate chips.  I am so glad I didn't have my camera... I might have missed something.

Monday, November 1, 2010

Thinking About Tomorrow

Tomorrow evening is looking to be a bit on the tricky side.  Aaron has parent teacher conferences, so won't be home until late.  The kids have swim lessons.  No big deal... right?  Hannah goes first.  Isaac has to wait 35 minutes until his turn comes around.  They overlap about 10 minutes.  All this goes on during our normal dinner time, and Eli is not very good at waiting for his dinner.  Hannah gets done and we have to wait 25 minutes for Isaac to finish.  Normally Aaron and I tag team and it works fairly well.  But I will be on my own.  I have a plan that I am hoping and praying works.  The baby backpack will come in very handy, as will an early dinner for Eli.  Hopefully all will go smoothly and we will leave the swimming pool triumphant. 

Isaac had a moment today.  We were shopping at Rite Aid, as I am loving their up rewards program.  He was looking at some alluring bubble bath with cartoon characters on them and one tipped over, breaking open and spilling on the floor.  It was an accident, nothing more.  I told him we needed to find someone who worked at the store so it could be cleaned up so that no one would fall.  He broke into tears and cried, "Mommy, I'm so scared!"  Poor little guy.  He felt terrible about it.  I reassured him and we found a lady who worked their.  She was fabulous and helped comfort Isaac.  I love nice people. 

The kids and I are getting close to being fully recovered from this nasty cold.  Isaac is off his antibiotic and Hannah made it through this cold without a secondary infection!!!!  The surgery must of done the trick.  Thanks be to God! We have been praying for an answer to this chronic illness problem of Hannah's and I think our prayer has been answered.  Hannah seems to be quite happy about not needing to see the Dr. and get meds.  I'm sure she feels soooo much better.

So, all is well in Pullman.  The house is messy, but not as messy as it was this morning.  Another load of laundry is done.  No more cooking for the night.  All of the kids are in bed and asleep... I think.  Aaron is snoring in the recliner.  I am sitting at the computer in my lounging clothes.  I'm getting ready to set things out for the morning.  Life is good. 

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Character

God has given Aaron and I three precious, priceless gifts... Hannah, Isaac and Eli.  Before I had children, I didn't understand a lot of things.  I still don't but I think I have a greater understanding of love.  The first time I held Hannah after she was born I was overwhelmed with a feeling of love that I had never felt before.  I can't even describe it.  That love only multiplied with Isaac and then Eli.  Perhaps I have a vague understanding of God's love for me, His child.  One of the greatest joys I have as a parent is seeing character develop in my children.  Character, not personality (although I enjoy that too).  Seeing how my children respond to a person in need, an animal that is hurt, a crying child, someone who is not the same as they are.  This is what I love to see. 

Hannah and Isaac were watching a movie today.  In this movie some baby chicks hatch and imprint on a sheep, obviously not their chicken mother.  Isaac simply states... "this is the sad part of the movie.  The Mommy chicken will come back and not know where her babies are.  It is so sad.  I am so sad for her."  Later the chicken finds the chicks and the other animal knit her a sweater from the sheep's wool and all is well, the babies are back with their chicken mother.  It brings joy to my hear to see that my rough and tumble little boy has such a tender heart for babies and their mommies.  This isn't the first time he has become upset at a movie when the baby is separated from the mommy.  Isaac adores babies and feels compelled to make sure that they are well cared for.  I wonder how this piece of his character will play out in his life as he grows.

The other night I hurt my back putting Eli in his crib.  Hannah was unwilling to leave my side.  She wanted to help me walk where I needed to go, get things for me, hold my hand and make me feel better.  Hannah is always willing to help someone in need.  She has a natural instinct for this I think, a gift God has given her.  This is part of her beautiful character.

I look forward to seeing Eli's character develop over time.  Right now he seems to take great pleasure in making people smile... it makes his day to be able to grin at lots of different people.  Such a great little guy!

I pray that God will guide Aaron and I as we strive to raise our children in a way that will positively guide them to Godly character.

Monday, October 25, 2010

What a Pain

A pain in my back that is.  Nothing like a pulled muscle in my lower back to slow me down.  I was trying to be extra quiet about putting my sleeping baby into his crib... he made it in and stayed asleep, but it took me quite a while to be able to move away from the crib.  I could barely stand up straight.  I took ibuprofen right away and put the heating pad on it.  I'm doing better this morning, but I am moving in slow motion.  Preschool today was tricky.  I was certainly moving slower than normal.  The kids were great and understanding of their slow motion teacher.  I wasn't able to get everything set up ahead of time, but they pitched in and gave a hand.  Such great kids I get to teach!

Hannah is home each afternoon this week as the school has conferences.  Hannah's is tomorrow afternoon.  Both Hannah and Isaac also start swim lessons tomorrow. They are super excited.  I'm still unsure about the scheduling of it and how it will all work, but it doesn't last forever, so we will muddle through the schedule of it.

Friday, October 22, 2010

New Every Morning

I have the tendency to be hard on myself.  I'm not a perfectionist in all areas... only in some.  I HATE making a mistake, I despise hard confrontation.  When fight or flight hits, I flee.  This is my natural instinct.  I remember in high school I went to some haunted house thing around Halloween... I fled that scary stuff... I didn't wait to see if the chinsaw was fake.  As much as I want to be a fighter all the time, I am not.  I am hard on myself for not being a fighter.  I will say that I am a fighter when it comes to my children, and the children I work with.  My heart and soul fights for them.

I have goals I want to meet.  I am hard on myself when I mess up.  Then I think what's the point... I'm going to mess it up anyway.  I convince myself it is good enough to just say I have a goal... that the goal really is not attainable.  I think it is a coping mechanism, a way to rationalize my failures.  But this is not right.  The Bible says that God's mercies are new every morning.  Every morning when I get out of bed, His mercies are new.  I have a completely fresh start.  What a relief!  I can work towards my goals, knowing that rough patches will come along, but they don't need to stop me.  I don't need a false coping mechanism because God's mercies are new every morning... mercies for me.  His grace covers me over and I am free to succeed, free to mess up, free to start again.  I don't need to become a fighter... God fights for me.  When I flee, I just need to remember to run to Him, flee to His gracious and loving arms. 

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

My Bedroom

So it's not just my bedroom, I share it with Aaron of course.  This room of the house is the one most severely neglected.  It is the last to be vacuumed, the last to be de-cluttered.  It is the first to have things "stored" in an emergency.  This, my friends, should not be.  I want my bedroom to be a relaxing place both for me and my husband.  So I need to tackle this project.  I still have a few boxes from the move sitting in the bedroom that need to be unpacked.  The problem is I have no place to put these things.  I need some type of organizer, but I don't want to spend a lot of money on it.  I am thinking I would like to get one of those ottomans that has storage inside, one that you can flip the cover over and use like a coffee table.  Anyone know where to find an inexpensive one?  Once those boxes are unloaded, that will help a lot in the organizing of the bedroom. 

Isaac came upstairs this morning wearing these awesome sunglasses and asked me, "Do I look gorgeous?"  Love it!

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Eli is 10 months Today!




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Kiddo Update

Eli is 10 months old today!  Where did the time go?  He is a busy crawler who likes to cruise around the furniture and walk behind something as he pushes it.  HE can stand up unassisted, but is not yet taking steps.  He can hold off for awhile longer!  Yesterday he dropped his cup on the floor and said, "Uh-Oh!"  Can you imagine the excitement at the dinner table!  Hannah and Isaac were so very excited... it kind of scared poor little Eli!  He is such a happy boy.  He has 8 teeth and very swollen gums, so more are on the way soon.  He likes to wave and flirt.  He loves his siblings and is very observant.  He also enjoyed wrestling with Isaac.  Yikes.  He is pooping consistently in the toilet and will pee in the toilet too.  We are teaching him the sign language to let us know when he needs to go.  Amazing.

Isaac is a busy preschooler who is making some wonderful friends!  It is fun to see him mature and make really solid friendships.  He misses Hannah during the day and is always excited when she is done with school.  He love to pray out loud and thank God for the beautiful world.  He also is very excited that he now wears boxer shorts.

Hannah is a wonderful girl who increasingly wants more independence.  Today was the first day I let her walk part of the way to school.  I dropped her off at the path that leads right to the school.  It isn't far for her to walk, but it certainly gives her a sense of pride and bigness.  She loves school and all of the friends she is making.  It sounds like they hunt for bigfoot at recess. 

So that is what these Krantz kids are up to.  Lots of fun.  Hannah and Isaac begin swim lessons on Tuesday next week.  They are very excited about it.  I'm glad they were able to be in separate classes, even though  it takes more work on my part... I think it is better for both of them to be separate!

I'm preparing dry beans today.  I've always used the canned beans, but I thought I would try cooking them myself.  We'll see how this goes.  It can't be that hard.  I did soak them, so hopefully they won't be gassy!  That could be bad.  Do you have a good bean recipe???

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Still Going

I just have to report that my little guy Eli, not even 10 months old yet, is still pooping in the toilet!  This is not a fluke.  In the past 2 months, I have only had to change 3 poopy diapers and they have happened in the car.  When I put him on the potty, if he doesn't poop, he pees!  He know how to make his body do these things!  He has now started to grin and laugh when he is done.  Amazing.  Does my baby sleep through the night?  No, but he poops in the toilet!  I'll totally take it!

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

New Pictures




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At the Pumpkin Patch




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Our Little Pumpkin




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A Woman of Noble Character

So Ruth was a woman of noble character.  I would love to have that label!  When I die, I want people to be able to truthfully say that I was a woman of noble character.  So what are these character traits?  These are a few I see in Ruth... LOYAL, COMPASSIONATE, SELF SACRIFICING LOVE, HARD WORKING, TRUSTWORTHY, TRUTHFUL, BRAVE, FAITHFUL, BELIEVING, STEADFAST, FOCUSED.  My prayer is that God would continue to shape me into a woman of noble character, that I could raise my children to be people of noble character and that my children will find spouses of noble character when they are older.  I think I will continue to learn what this means all through my lifetime!

A friend of mine just ran her first marathon!  I asked her how she felt about it and she said, "I feel like anything is possible."  Her comment came at just the right time for me, like God wanted her to say those words to me at the instant that she did.  Thanks Harmony for being God's voice  to me in that moment!  I have a few goals that I am working on attaining and at times I just want to say forget it and be done.  Since going on the women's retreat I feel like God is pushing me forward, telling me to get our of my rut and grow.  With Christ, anything is possible.  If my friend can run a marathon, I can run the race in front of me!  I know it will take training and discipline, but I know it can be done.

Monday, October 11, 2010

Kinsman Redeemer

I have never really took a hard look at the book of Ruth, but on Sunday we took a quick glimpse and I felt like God was calling me to it.  I couldn't get the discussion out of my head and the thought of Jesus being my kinsman redeemer.  So, I am going to study Ruth.  I need to be redeemed... I already have been through Jesus, but I want to read about it, bring it close to my heart and I want to know Jesus more and more as my Kinsman Redeemer.  Redemption is a wonderful thing.  In Ruth, Naomi was empty, completely empty, to the point of bitterness.  But self sacrificing love and compassion filled her and restored her, an act of redemption.  I feel like I am almost empty... I'm not to the point of bitterness, but I need refilling - I need to be reminded of my redemption and the sacrificial love of my Redeemer.  Ruth is a good place to be in the Word right now.

On another note, Tiny has still not returned.  The kids, especially Hannah, are starting to feel that pain of loss.  We don't know if our kitty will return or if she is dead.  It would almost be easier to know for sure if we should say good-bye to our very loved kitty. 

Eli stood up again today without pulling up on anything.  I think he will walk sooner than the other two did.  He might surprise me though and hold out until his first birthday... I kind of doubt it.  Isaac is making Eli laugh all the time.  They have become amazing little buddies, even wrestling a little.  Eli loves it and Isaac is very careful.  Boys.  Hannah seems more grown up to me everyday, such an amazing girl.  I love seeing her becoming confident and independent, but at the same time it seems like she was just a baby and the time has gone so fast.  This is just another stage for her and I will enjoy all my moments with her just as I did before... just in a little different way.

I look forward to sharing what I learn from my study of the book of Ruth.  If you have studied it, please share any insights... I would love to hear them!

Friday, October 8, 2010

Journaling

Last night I spent time journaling through my time with God.  I don't know why I didn't think of it earlier... this is a tool I have used in the past.  I am not a fabulous writer, but I am a focused writer.  When I write, my mind is set... not a lot interferes.  So it makes sense to use journaling as a mean of focus when reading the Bible, praying and thinking through things.  It felt good to remember my long lost tool! 

Now I need to find time to get my physical body moving more.  This is a tough one... I can't have the kids around because they crawl all over me... I've tried lots of different things with the kids around and it just doesn't work.  I would love to swim laps, but the childcare thing is the issue.  An answer will present itself  I have no doubt... just when? 

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Didn't Happen

Well, 5:15am came and I wasn't in bed, but I wasn't doing what I had planned. Eli is teething and was up about every hour during the night... and so was I! 5:15 was one of those times. Anyway, 5:15 didn't work. I've been thinking on and off this morning and have decided that I do really need sleep and would I really be able to stay awake if I got up that early to mediate or pray. I think I would end up asleep. My best time of day has always been the evening. So I think I will set aside some time every evening after the kids are in bed to spend some good time with God. This makes more sense to me and I believe that it will work... I'm not setting myself up to fail at this goal I have.

I must say that I have had a fabulous morning, even though I am tired. Preschool was amazing, I have such great kids and families! I spent a good amount of time after preschool listening to Isaac and Eli laugh at a balloon flying across the room after being blown up. Their laughs make me laugh, soothing for my soul!

We are slowly working through a crisis at our home. Our kitty hasn't been seen since Saturday evening... most likely killed by coyotes, but we just don't know. So we are working through the trauma of a missing kitty, one that is in every family picture drawn by Hannah. Even Aaron is a little sad about Tiny not being with us anymore. Who knows, maybe she will come meowing at our door sometime.

Life is good on this rainy day. I don't have all the answers I am looking for, but that's OK.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Wanting to Blog

I've been trying to sit down and write all evening, but things keep coming up and I get pulled away. A teething baby, an overtired 4 year old... Anyway, I'm here now.

Over the weekend Eli and I attended my church's women's retreat in Post Falls. Eli doesn't take a bottle, so we are pretty close! It was very kind of the ladies to let him come along. He did fabulous, such an easy little guy. Anyway, the retreat was focusing on spiritual disciplines. I am familiar with these, I actually practiced a few before I had children. For the past 6 years, my life has become a bit more hectic... all the more need for some spiritual discipline. But how in the world will I accomplish this? This is something I have to give up in prayer. I know it is a good thing to desire, to find time to pray, meditate of the Word of God, find some solitude, practice simplicity, study the Bible... and there are more. I know there is a way to do this, but I'm not sure what it is. It's not that I feel like I have to do some of this, but I really want to. I'm feeling a bit dry in my faith walk, like my cup is looking a bit empty. I desire to be closer to the Living God, to hear the voice of my Creator in the words of the Bible, to spend time with the Lover of my soul. I know God will grant this desire of my heart... I just hope it doesn't mean getting up at 5am each morning... is that terrible of me? Do I crave sleep more than I crave intimacy with God? I need both. I am not a morning person, I have had to learn to function well in the mornings since having children. I just don't see another time of the day that can be devoted to this. Maybe God will reveal another time of the day, or maybe 5 am would be the best thing for me.

I think in the morning I will try getting up when Aaron gets up to shower. I'm going to give it a go, this 5 am thing... maybe more like 5:15. Those 15 minutes make a big difference.

The other thing I am trying to fit into my schedule is a time to exercise. I find myself taking care of everyone's needs but my own. With young children this is almost a necessity, so how do I find time to take care of myself too? Seriously. I am enjoying this part of my life with my kids... I treasure their childhood and love being their Mom. I just am finding that I need to take care of me too.

So that is what is on my mind lately. I'll let you know how 5:15am works out!

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Things Learned in Pastor's Office

I took the kids to the dollar store with me and they each had $2 to spend if they found something they wanted. Hannah picked out fake weird looking teeth and candycorn. Isaac chose a ball shooter and a whoopee cushion. He had no idea what a whoopee cushion was or what it did, but Hannah told him he would really like it.

On the ride home, he opened his new purchase and discovered with great delight that it made wonderful fart noises. He laughed, Hannah laughed, Eli laughed and of course I giggled too. Through the immense laughter Isaac declared "This is the best toy ever!" Remembering that Hannah told him to buy it I asked her where she had learned about whoopee cushions. She replied with a huge grin, "Pastor Dudley's office!" Need I say more? I'm still laughing!

Sunday, September 26, 2010

My Cuties!




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End of Summer Fun With Family




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First Days of School

It took me long enough, but here are the pictures of Hannah's first day of First Grade
and Isaac's first day of Preschool. Enjoy!

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